supposed to post this yesterday but lj died on me @.@
so here it is.
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was my birthday yesterday(: Happy belated 18th birthday to me!~ hahahs.

went out with my family to celebrate the night before, tuesday evening after internship. had dinner at some western place, before going back to northpoint's swensens for an ice-cream cake. ended up eating straight off the cake, 'cos we didn't know that we could ask them to cut it up into pieces for us! hahahs. went home after that. will update photos the next time...

yesterday after school ended at 5 went out to celebrate with dear. planned to eat Manhattan FIsh Market quite some time ago, since i never tried it before (yes i know i'm deprived), and i wanted to walk walk aroung Iluma ever since weiying mentioned it to me. so off we went to Bugis(:
the food was good! after that went for a movie -The hangover- not too bad, super funny x) but quite vulgar @.@ hahahs. had a wonderful time out ^.^
thankies dear for the present, i really love it<3

and thankies all for the gifts and birthday wishes!=D


The time is now, the place is here. Stay in the present. You can do nothing to change the past, and the future will never come exactly as you plan or hope for.

fell ill on friday morning; had a terrible stomachache. left the house but didn't make it to school. lucky had dear around; sent me to the polyclinic, was the first few in the queue hahahs. finally managed to see the doctor about 1.5 hours later, by then the pain was almost gone. apparently had something like gastric flu @.@ anyways now i've the medicine and all so should be alright. thankies dear!<3
went home took a nap, end up coming down with high fever in the late afternoon @.@ temperature was something like, 38.5deg. hahahs. thank goodness for my mom, stayed up the whole night making sure i had my medicine on time and everything. got slightly better by saturday afternoon, had alot of long naps. much better today already!(:

yes, i make decisions for myself, that hurt others. sorry for causing pain even though you don't deserve any of it.


Piglet sidled up behind Pooh. "Pooh," he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you."

i realised it's almost a month into the term after doing close to a month of dentistry assistance. it has been really fun so far, though all we have been doing of late is deleting photos! patient after patient, day after day, month after month @.@ but i learnt alot, after seeing all kinds of teeth: nice white and straight ones, dirty ones, decayed ones(?!)... taught me a valuable lesson of how important it is to maintain the condition of our teeth, 'cos not only would it look horrible, it would cause a hole in the pocket getting it restored.

went out walk walk just now(: wanted to watch movie but didn't =( hahahs never mind, soon! x)

nowadays things haven't really been going right, mood's been rather erratic, problems popping out. it's always hard to make decisions that you know will end up hurting someone, yourself or someone else. the difference is who you choose to hurt, that's all.

we tend to take it for granted that things we want or plan will fall nicely into place; how wrong we are. an accident, a change or a death - and everything's different and never the same again.

就算做这次是我让你，反正自始自终你本来就没有打算过要那么做。 不管是什么理由上我都不会输给你，但都解决了，就算了。

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now


It's so hard when I have to, and so easy when I want to.

come to think of it, i've been really busy this past week or so, all the things to decide - major decisions - and plan, and all the rushing here and there. i'm thankful that i've some people there for me still, you know who you all are, thanks so much for just being there(:

it was my dear's birthday on sunday, went out to walk walk and a movie and dinner(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR! <3
hahahs a lil belated here >.<

( photos taken at dinner 'cos i was bored =X )


i'd better get to bed, have to wake early tomorrow again, as usual. and face yet another day.


Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same.

now that school has started, lotsa stuff has changed too. hahahs. i'm currently doing internship at GPA, and learning tons of stuff(: it's really great there x)

but, with all these stuff going on, i'm starting to feel like i don't have time left. for myself, to do the things i want, spend time with people i love. yeah true, a new semester, but i don't see many others so starved for time. sometimes it feels like i'm being left breathless planning my stuff 'cos i've to accommodate all the things to do.

super tired. just, leave me alone.


Anything that is of value in life only multiplies when it is given.

i will overcome all pain in my heart and be with you...

haven't really been posting these days... nothing much going on... sorry to all who have been bugging me to update but i've been too lazy busy to =X
went out quite abit these hols(:

went prawning with dear, weiying, conrad and lenny on the 9th! FUNN (= had BBQ there after that, kudos to my dad who brought some food down ^.^
epic catch of the day by lenny, who swung the stick upwards and the poor prawn flew over a bar overhead and was dangling from the line xD
had a wonderful time that day(:

today celebrated my dad's birthday and father's day. bought a tiramisu cake and ordered in KFC for lunch @.@
super full now >.<

watched a few movies -- Night at the Museum 2, Angels & Demons, Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. not too bad =) went k-box a few times too if i remember correctly(: and i watched a few korean drama serials already! hahahs. finally got down to clearing a lil x)

sighh. it's the last week of the hols le, time flies so quickly.
have to finish up my english essay which is staring at me in the face >.<
*HUGGGEEE sigh*

thank you for always being there for me, doing your best to make everything alright once again. and holding me close when i needed someone there, it really meant alot. <3


Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow; we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

haven't blogged for a week again >.< people complain le >.<
lots of stuff happening nowadays, tired @.@

in the com lab doing the IP school survey in school now, grrr... hahahs.
long day today. to me, i guess. sigh. just want to go rest somewhere...

jury in a few days. oh wells. not expecting too much, haven't gone for a single lesson in a few months, haven't even touched the piano in quite awhile. lol.

sigh. i really don't know what to do. spotted on someone's blog that sometimes dying isn't as painful as it seems. it's the letting go of those you love around you that hurts. how true.

i'm glad that some things are cleared, and some are not.


Life is like playing a violin in public and learning the instrument as one goes on.

been neglecting this blog for quite awhile le >.<
hmmm all the exams and all, kinda busy these days.
but now, exams are all over!
WOOO~
hahahs. now for all the drama serials and shows to watch x)


been spending more time with my dear these days(:
thankies dearie for being there with me, studying, putting up with all the stuff =/
<3

anyways, i've some events planned out for next week le(: get to spend time with friends, enjoy myself ^.^


我开始想念
和他的每一天
聊了一整夜
说自己的从前
忽然在心理面
我隐约有一种
痛的感觉
也许是我
被他命中了
我心中的缺

我猜我是中了箭
才遇上他第七天
那一瞬间我有些晕眩
像全世界从此被偷走时间
我中了爱情的箭
很痛但是心很甜
我躲不开也不想避免
他没发现却在我身上应验
我中了一箭


When you love someone, you pick up the little things and magically turn them into something special.

been busy the past few days.
had open house yesterday, then the concert at night. i actually fell asleep! for the first time xD though i think it was only for a short while >.< 'cos we were in the 6th row from the front or somthing, so had to tilt the head back a lil and my eyes were hurting like hell, so by the time it was intermission i was complaining to weiying and angela hahahs. the 3rd/4th movement for the 2nd half of the show was super slow, and soothing! that's why xD
went home and had supper since i didn't really have dinner before the concert(:

getting back our exam scripts le @.@ like, so fast! barely 2 days from our paper then we got back le lol. anyways,the APs are getting closer! >.< gahh.

had some exercise in the morning hahahs badminton. was fun! <3

it hasn't been long, but i've changed. so have you.


The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.


"Charm" - which means the power to effect work without employing brute force - is indispensable to women. Charm is a woman's strength just as strength is a man's charm.

good friday yesterday!
the church was packed full O.O like, REALLY REALLY full.4 floors in the sanctuary, more than 4 rooms in the basement with video projections O.O and there were still people watching from outside. WOW.

exams are coming right up. "mock papers", to be exact. good luck to all(:

this year seems to fly by so quickly. i'm starting to wonder if it's a good thing or a bad thing.

and sometimes, we say things and they come out different from what we mean. i'm so sorry, for causing hurt.

你身上专属的陌生味道
是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望来知道
竟是我们相隔着一个街角
这么久了，我还是可以感到感觉
你到底对我多重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰
你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀
你和我绕了这么一圈才遇到
我比谁都更明白你的重要
这么久了我就决定了
决定了你的手我握了不会放掉
你和我绕了这么一圈才遇到
我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我有的我自己知道
只要你的肩膀永远让我靠


For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness.

hahahs. last week was pure craziness, at least it's over.
the sound of music was wonderful! <3

andand since i made a pact to post about it, here goes~
a few days ago when we were walking in fairprice and passed by a row of shelves with milk powder,

Dear: "sian nowadays alot pimples dunno how to get rid of them..."
Me: "i heard that drinking baby milk powder can cure pimples... "
Dear: "REALLY?!"

after a min or so,
Me: "*laughs* actually im just kidding xD"


HAHAHAHS. XD
on a more somber note, i did fall ill after all -.-


Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep.

the scent is more fragrant than my clouded dream...

rahh. just looking at the week ahead and i'm already beginning to fear for my life -.-
packed like nobody's business -- appointments, lessons...
oh wells. life =.=

things not cleared; things never understood. and sometimes i really wonder, how much do i actually mean to someone. it was fun, wasn't it. perhaps to you there wasn't anything wrong to begin with -- it was just me.

i'm just thankful that this time, i have people behind me to support me up, to keep me moving on.


Maybe I wanted to hear it so badly that my ears betrayed my mind in order to secure my heart.

tests are over! at least for yesterday's and today's. hmmm ^.^

went to watch paul blart-mall cop with dear. wasn't too bad! funny~ xD

don't really have much to post about these days i guess, pretty busy with the usual stuff(: but i'm happy! hahahs. i guess to me that's what really matters in the end. doing things i want to do, knowing that i'm maximizing my time and living life the way i want it to be(:

What good's a memory
Without you there with me
The morning sun ain't the same without you here
You are the summer breeze
The wind blowing through the trees
You make the loneliness all just disappear

Nothing replaces your touch
Never stop believing in us
They try to break us but we stand strong in love
They'll be no distance too far
I gotta be where you are (right where you are)

I don't wanna face this world alone
Without you by my side
You're the only one that makes it feel like home
And I need you in my life
When you're not around I'm feeling
Like a piece of me is missing
When it feels like the day is closing in
Somehow I find the faith to make it through
When I'm with you, when I'm with you


If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your autumn fall. Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest.

the march holidays are here! yay!
but come to think of it, they are never like holidays -.- the amount of homework due once school reopens, and the tests to study for... URGH.

celebrated an early birthday for weiying on friday =D hope it was a surprise, though she smartly figured it out earlier anyways >.<

and i did alright for the H1 chinese(: thankies to all who congratulated me and worried for me ^.^

and i'm so thankful i've you with me, really(:


A woman can forgive a man for the harm he did to her... but she can never forgive him for the sacrifices he makes on her account.

haven't posted in a long time... been pretty busy for the past week or so. 2 tests yesterday; english and stats >.< hahahs. at least they're over! less than a week to the march hols(:

just had a talk not too long ago. a teacher brought up a very good point, about how passive we are and how we don't have the courage to snatch the things we want. painful but true, our batch would rather stay low-key and let others voice out first, and not be the one noticed. how are we to compete with others out there? even though we have outstanding results, academic stuff to show off, the other side of our lives are empty. no personal growth, no community service, no helping of others. well-rounded huh? i dunno, but i find our students more selfish than those out there, more prone to complaining about stuff, but not willing to take action.

it is about standing by what i want, and for now, i know i'm lacking in alot of stuff, other than the academics. and i want to make up for it, i want to do the things i want, i want to do things the best way i know how.

it takes time to find ourselves within, to figure out what we are living for, what we are willing to fight for. and now that i've found mine, i would let it go. not anymore.


and Lord, help me to find the time to do things for You, to do things for myself.

just realised i haven't posted for a week O.O
lots of stuff happened. hmmm.

super tired. ah wells.
i've learnt to look forward to the weekends for rest. but sometimes, it just doesn't come.

anyways, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, ANGELA!(:


Hush now don't you cry
There will be a better day
I promise you
We can work it out
But only if you let me know
What's on your mind

Baby, you thought it was forever
Through any kind of weather
But some day you will find what your searching for

Try again
Never stop believing
Try Again
Don't give up on your love
Stumble and fall
Its the heart of it all
When you fall down
Just try again

Baby when a heart is crying
Its sometimes feels like dying
The tear drops fall like rain


If you do it you'll regret it, if you don't do it you'll regret it, either way you are still going to regret it,so you might as well just do it.

tagged to do this:

Hi, my name is: michelle

But you can call me: anything but shellie -.-

Never in my life have I: wanted to spend more time with a person so bad.

The one person who can drive me nuts is: my mom -.-

My high school is: NUS High (current), River Valley

The last song I listened to was: Best of Me – Daniel Powter

If I were to get married right now it would be to: UHHHH. x)

My hair is: black(:

When I was 4: i slept alot. unfortunately i can't anymore T.T

Last Christmas: was a memorable one.

I should be: exercising more and pigging out less!

The happiest recent moment was: spending valentines day with dear ^^

If I were a character on ‘Friends’: i'd not be anyone.

I have a hard time understanding: the way guys think.

There are these girls: who always bully me T.T you know who you are *AHEM*

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: god(:

I want to buy: a curler! and clothes! andand...

Where do you plan to go during Chinese New Year: out?

If you spent the night at my house: you’ll be bored to death.

The world could do better without: complaints

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: huge plasters >.<

Most recent thing someone else bought me: medicine -.-

My middle name is: nope don’t have one.

In the morning: I jump out of bed just as my alarm starts ringing and switch it off before flopping back on the bed.

Last night : i slept before 1!

There’s this guy I know: who's super sweet(:

If I were an animal I’d be: a koala ^.^ and sleep all day long. AHHHHH~

A better name for me would be: hmmm.

I am: looking forward to the end of the week. but not to tomorrow.

Tonight I am: going to sleep early. at least earlier than usual.

My birthday is: 5th August!

=D done!
i tag all my friends on lj, and whoever stumbles upon this blog.


and when we finally realise the importance of happiness, some will choose let go and not to pursue it, some will treasure it even more after fighting for it.

going to tuition in awhile.
long day today. sigh.
thankies dear(:

anyways, being bugged by SOMEEE people to post 'bout saturday x)
welllll~
hadlunch at pepper lunch =D then walked around, watched a movie, Look For A Star, starring andy lau and shu qi. hmmm wasn't too bad(:
after that went to plaza sing to walk around, then dinner at swensen's(:
had a wonderful day out ^.^



isn't it preeetttyyyy~
<3

Baby it's you
When I look up in the sky I see you
Then I turn and close my eyes
It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room
Everything reminds me of you


People need love the most when they deserve it the least.

had a wonderful day today(:

thankies dear, they're lovely!! <3

super tired now >.< shall post more tomorrow or something(:


and i thank God for having you in my life.

hahahs in the chem lab this time, using cass' laptop to post x)
lalala. waiting for the thingy to distill out =( super loooong. setup in 15 minutes and wait for an hour to distill...

hmmm. SIGHHH. i can't check my emails in hotmail!! WHYY T.T
ARGH. they take so long replying emails >.<

aaron: and aaron is being really cool. like.. as always!


i want to run away, far away...