sometimes things don't turn out the way we plan, sometimes miracles happen.
i look back and it seemed like a long time ago, but it was just yesterday.
i can't believe things are working out this way; i should be glad, but somehow i'm not as excited as i should be.

i realised that i have alot of things undone, and it is already almost mid-way through the year. i've gone more than half a year without lessons of any kind, and in a few more months and it'll be school for the next 4 years or so.

i'm really lucky, to have gone through so much and come out standing stronger than ever, to have the people i can count on around me, supporting me. life is bearable now, if i take a month at a time, a day at a time. my days are packed, day in day out.

how long has it been since i didn't have to report to anyone, since i look forward to spending a day at work because i know i will have company there that i enjoy, since i actually am living my life out as it should be?

i guess that's a good thing.

supposed to post this yesterday but lj died on me @.@
so here it is.
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was my birthday yesterday(: Happy belated 18th birthday to me!~ hahahs.

went out with my family to celebrate the night before, tuesday evening after internship. had dinner at some western place, before going back to northpoint's swensens for an ice-cream cake. ended up eating straight off the cake, 'cos we didn't know that we could ask them to cut it up into pieces for us! hahahs. went home after that. will update photos the next time...

yesterday after school ended at 5 went out to celebrate with dear. planned to eat Manhattan FIsh Market quite some time ago, since i never tried it before (yes i know i'm deprived), and i wanted to walk walk aroung Iluma ever since weiying mentioned it to me. so off we went to Bugis(:
the food was good! after that went for a movie -The hangover- not too bad, super funny x) but quite vulgar @.@ hahahs. had a wonderful time out ^.^
thankies dear for the present, i really love it<3

and thankies all for the gifts and birthday wishes!=D


The time is now, the place is here. Stay in the present. You can do nothing to change the past, and the future will never come exactly as you plan or hope for.

fell ill on friday morning; had a terrible stomachache. left the house but didn't make it to school. lucky had dear around; sent me to the polyclinic, was the first few in the queue hahahs. finally managed to see the doctor about 1.5 hours later, by then the pain was almost gone. apparently had something like gastric flu @.@ anyways now i've the medicine and all so should be alright. thankies dear!<3
went home took a nap, end up coming down with high fever in the late afternoon @.@ temperature was something like, 38.5deg. hahahs. thank goodness for my mom, stayed up the whole night making sure i had my medicine on time and everything. got slightly better by saturday afternoon, had alot of long naps. much better today already!(:

yes, i make decisions for myself, that hurt others. sorry for causing pain even though you don't deserve any of it.


Piglet sidled up behind Pooh. "Pooh," he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you."

i realised it's almost a month into the term after doing close to a month of dentistry assistance. it has been really fun so far, though all we have been doing of late is deleting photos! patient after patient, day after day, month after month @.@ but i learnt alot, after seeing all kinds of teeth: nice white and straight ones, dirty ones, decayed ones(?!)... taught me a valuable lesson of how important it is to maintain the condition of our teeth, 'cos not only would it look horrible, it would cause a hole in the pocket getting it restored.

went out walk walk just now(: wanted to watch movie but didn't =( hahahs never mind, soon! x)

nowadays things haven't really been going right, mood's been rather erratic, problems popping out. it's always hard to make decisions that you know will end up hurting someone, yourself or someone else. the difference is who you choose to hurt, that's all.

we tend to take it for granted that things we want or plan will fall nicely into place; how wrong we are. an accident, a change or a death - and everything's different and never the same again.

就算做这次是我让你，反正自始自终你本来就没有打算过要那么做。 不管是什么理由上我都不会输给你，但都解决了，就算了。

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now


It's so hard when I have to, and so easy when I want to.

come to think of it, i've been really busy this past week or so, all the things to decide - major decisions - and plan, and all the rushing here and there. i'm thankful that i've some people there for me still, you know who you all are, thanks so much for just being there(:

it was my dear's birthday on sunday, went out to walk walk and a movie and dinner(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR! <3
hahahs a lil belated here >.<

( photos taken at dinner 'cos i was bored =X )


i'd better get to bed, have to wake early tomorrow again, as usual. and face yet another day.


Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same.

now that school has started, lotsa stuff has changed too. hahahs. i'm currently doing internship at GPA, and learning tons of stuff(: it's really great there x)

but, with all these stuff going on, i'm starting to feel like i don't have time left. for myself, to do the things i want, spend time with people i love. yeah true, a new semester, but i don't see many others so starved for time. sometimes it feels like i'm being left breathless planning my stuff 'cos i've to accommodate all the things to do.

super tired. just, leave me alone.


Anything that is of value in life only multiplies when it is given.

i will overcome all pain in my heart and be with you...

haven't really been posting these days... nothing much going on... sorry to all who have been bugging me to update but i've been too lazy busy to =X
went out quite abit these hols(:

went prawning with dear, weiying, conrad and lenny on the 9th! FUNN (= had BBQ there after that, kudos to my dad who brought some food down ^.^
epic catch of the day by lenny, who swung the stick upwards and the poor prawn flew over a bar overhead and was dangling from the line xD
had a wonderful time that day(:

today celebrated my dad's birthday and father's day. bought a tiramisu cake and ordered in KFC for lunch @.@
super full now >.<

watched a few movies -- Night at the Museum 2, Angels & Demons, Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. not too bad =) went k-box a few times too if i remember correctly(: and i watched a few korean drama serials already! hahahs. finally got down to clearing a lil x)

sighh. it's the last week of the hols le, time flies so quickly.
have to finish up my english essay which is staring at me in the face >.<
*HUGGGEEE sigh*

thank you for always being there for me, doing your best to make everything alright once again. and holding me close when i needed someone there, it really meant alot. <3


Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow; we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

haven't blogged for a week again >.< people complain le >.<
lots of stuff happening nowadays, tired @.@

in the com lab doing the IP school survey in school now, grrr... hahahs.
long day today. to me, i guess. sigh. just want to go rest somewhere...

jury in a few days. oh wells. not expecting too much, haven't gone for a single lesson in a few months, haven't even touched the piano in quite awhile. lol.

sigh. i really don't know what to do. spotted on someone's blog that sometimes dying isn't as painful as it seems. it's the letting go of those you love around you that hurts. how true.

i'm glad that some things are cleared, and some are not.


Life is like playing a violin in public and learning the instrument as one goes on.

been neglecting this blog for quite awhile le >.<
hmmm all the exams and all, kinda busy these days.
but now, exams are all over!
WOOO~
hahahs. now for all the drama serials and shows to watch x)


been spending more time with my dear these days(:
thankies dearie for being there with me, studying, putting up with all the stuff =/
<3

anyways, i've some events planned out for next week le(: get to spend time with friends, enjoy myself ^.^


我开始想念
和他的每一天
聊了一整夜
说自己的从前
忽然在心理面
我隐约有一种
痛的感觉
也许是我
被他命中了
我心中的缺

我猜我是中了箭
才遇上他第七天
那一瞬间我有些晕眩
像全世界从此被偷走时间
我中了爱情的箭
很痛但是心很甜
我躲不开也不想避免
他没发现却在我身上应验
我中了一箭


When you love someone, you pick up the little things and magically turn them into something special.

been busy the past few days.
had open house yesterday, then the concert at night. i actually fell asleep! for the first time xD though i think it was only for a short while >.< 'cos we were in the 6th row from the front or somthing, so had to tilt the head back a lil and my eyes were hurting like hell, so by the time it was intermission i was complaining to weiying and angela hahahs. the 3rd/4th movement for the 2nd half of the show was super slow, and soothing! that's why xD
went home and had supper since i didn't really have dinner before the concert(:

getting back our exam scripts le @.@ like, so fast! barely 2 days from our paper then we got back le lol. anyways,the APs are getting closer! >.< gahh.

had some exercise in the morning hahahs badminton. was fun! <3

it hasn't been long, but i've changed. so have you.


The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.


"Charm" - which means the power to effect work without employing brute force - is indispensable to women. Charm is a woman's strength just as strength is a man's charm.